Simplicity is Beauty | Perfectly Imperfect

You know, my husband and I had a relationship for 8 years before we got married. We are now married for a year, going 2 years on October, a total of 10 years altogether. And within this relationship, we've never experienced what other partners, boyfriend/girlfriend had experienced: that is the fear of being pregnant. Because when we started to do the deed premaritally, we were already taught to use contraceptives. My family is so open that my mom actually introduced me to pills when she knew that I wasn't a virgin anymore. She was just being practical and open too because a lot of women (especially teens) get pregnant just like that. She just wants to be sure that I won't get pregnant at that time because I wasn't ready yet, we (my boyfriend, now husband, and I) were not ready yet (although we weren't teenagers anymore). So I continued to use the pills up to a time that my boyfriend (now husband) said that I should already stop. He feared that I might not get pregnant anymore when the time comes because of that. So I stopped then he used the condom. We used this contraceptive method until we got married. From that time up to now, we never ever used any contraceptives anymore, of course, because we already want to start a family. We've been trying and trying, but up to now, going 2 years married, I'm not pregnant yet. I thought I was pregnant when my period didn't arrive on the expected date (last Feb. 18). I have regular menstruation (last period was Jan. 21). But as my husband and I were strolling the mall today, my period came. I was about to buy a pregnancy test kit for crying out loud! I really was expecting "this is it!". I was praying too. But sadly, a false alarm...Darn! My husband is going away to work abroad next Thursday and we will not see each other for 6 months! I want to be pregnant so that he'll be inspired and happy even though we're not together because we're going to have a baby. I know he already wants one so badly. I really want to have a baby too, my own child...but it didn't happen...When will it happen?!