Simplicity is Beauty | Perfectly Imperfect

I had these dreams the other night that made me wake up twice. I remember the dreams but not every detail. The first dream I had was about my dead younger brother. He died of heart attack, or something like that, when he was only 13 yrs. old, Nov. 25th 2001 to be exact. In my dream, the doctor in the hospital said that he'll live but will be like a vegetable for the rest of his life, but he still died in my dream eventually after days or months. The next dream I had was about my husband. All the people in the house knew that he's dead except for me and they all didn't want to tell me that he died. I was waiting and waiting for him to come home.

I don't know what these dreams mean. I think I dreamed about my younger brother because I miss him. I think he just wanted to tell me that if he didn't died that day, he would just suffer. I sometimes wonder what he would be like if he's still around. And when I think of him, I cry sometimes. I have lot's of regrets, that I should have done this and that when he was still alive. About my husband, on the other hand, maybe my dream just means that I'm too afraid to lose him. Maybe the people in my dream didn't tell me he was dead because they know I'll be very very hurt if I knew. But in reality, I want to know even if it hurts so much.

Bad dreams huh? I rarely have dreams but these in one night? Gosh...I don't want to think about it anymore!